My day as a Songwriter Ups and Downs- Plus a random rant.

You've figured out by now, I write pretty much exactly how I talk. So, I'm yeeting it.. I'm gonna talk about My day as a songwriter, the Ups and Downs.

When I'm writing these pages, I always imagine I'm jibber jabbering with friends.

Cause we friends now, right!..

So, I'm fixn to tell you all about my day today..

I went from feeling like a rock start to a cockroach in 3.5 seconds. (Listen- I might be exaggerating slightly.)

I have to give ya a little backstory.

Just grab ya some coffee, right quick and roll with me.

Well, let me start by letting ya know, I've been hard at it. And I mean I've been on a mission, dedicated committed!

Doing what I gotta do to get my demos in the right ears. And as you know, that means a butt ton of social media posts and Lives.

Now, lets be real clear here, I'm not the kind of gal you put on speaker phone much less a Live camera without adult supervision.

When I get excited - you never know what will spill out this brain box.

Yet, here I am doing my very dang best to get on the Tiktoker app and spread my damn sunshine like a STD at the villages. (If you don't get that reference Google it- It's funny just FYI)

Anyhoo,

I've even signed up with a "Agency" on the tiktoker app.

Now AGAIN to be real clear here.

I have no dang idea what I've signed up for. All I know is its free and I have to "Go Live" for seven hours a month. My girlfriend who's a dedicated tiktoker said "You should do it", My daughter has been poking me about doing more social media too.

So, here I am LIVE unfiltered for seven whole hours a month!.

What could go wrong??

So Yeah- Let that soak in. Unfiltered for seven whole hours!

Let me get back on track here with this story.....

So, back to the Tiktoker app specifically. I've been posting my lyric demos, they are getting great feedback and starting to gain traction, which is fantastic. And... folks are starting to notice.

With that being said- I believe folks are noticing because I have some kick ass social media friends who promote the hell out of my work.

I know if it weren't for their support and sharing, playing my demos- I wouldn't have the response were having.

It's wild to be scrolling through the app and hear my songs playing in the backgrounds of someone's live. Talk about bake my noodle. No words for the feels I get.

Leads me to the rollercoaster of todays highs and lows.

THE HIGHS

The highs are when folks tell me that a song I wrote touched them and they could feel exactly what I wrote about. It's incredible hearing my songs being played. Having my songs recorded.

Getting messages from artists about how they love my lyrics.

When an artist tags me in a post about songwriters.

This is just the tip of the iceberg of the highs I get daily.

Wildly enough, I'd love to be able to sit here and blow sunshine up your butt and spew the bravado that some folks say like, "I don't need anyone's praise" or "Ya got to be thick skinned", bla bla bla..

It's all BS.. We are all human and those feelings of praise feels good. And if it doesn't, well I s'pose you're a better person then me, cause I eat it up like a soup sammich.

Makes me feel like I've actually put something great into the world, something that makes someone stop and feel what's good in the world. And that's a vibe!

I love the feedback. It Makes me think "Hell yeah, I'm doing my part"

I've said it a hundred times,

"If I written the lyrics good enough- you can feel the words."

And I'll full chested stand on that.

The Lows?

I'm changing that heading to "Lulls" Only because "The Lows" are really just lulls..

"plural noun: lulls noun a temporary interval of quiet or lack of activity."

In the times of "Lulls" is when you have time to get annoyed. I was going to insert a quote here about busy hands.. But- dang if I can remember that quote at the moment.

Alright back to getting annoyed. And this does not happen often- or even at all really. Because It never bothers me if my genre ain't someone's jam. I totally get that.

Heck, I have an eclectic taste in music too just depends on my mood.

Yet today, One damn comment from someone that doesn't understand what I do, or how I work, whammy I'm spiraling (actually not spiraling- just annoyed is a better word) (You know, like a button falling off your shirt type annoyed)

Some of y'all reading this actually know me in real life. And some of y'all are my web family here. Either way if you've been along with me for hot second, y'all know I work seven days a week. All day.. and most days into the wee morning hours.

That leads me to this comment I got today, that just annoyed me..

And to be honest with y'all- I'm not sure that this fella even meant to sound condescending. But....

((( I'm taking a breath here, Because I'm all over the place right now with trying to give you background and keeping with the topic))) Yet, This is the Lull section?.. Meh- keep reading..... I'll pull it all together in the end.

.....

He inferred that because I used AI in my production - that my lyrics were not raw or real enough to make the cut. (I wanted to cut and paste the exact comment here- but decided against it because I'm trying to give the fella grace and think maybe he didn't realize how condescending his comment was.

Ok sir, Whoa! Step on them hate breaks a hot second.. .... ok.. So, the fact that EVERYTHING I write is 100% hand penned real life stories, isn't "Raw enough"

simply because I use technology to facilitate a demo?

Let me dissect this a little. And yes, again I'm slightly aggravated.

To think that my lyrics aren't raw enough or real enough, because I'm not able to pay a recording studio thousands of dollars for a demo, negates my lyrics and the stories behind them!? ((Sarcasm))

Well Hell- someone needs to tell that to the folks who send me messages about how something I wrote made them feel a certain way or brought back a memory or made them proud of themselves for a addiction recovery.

"Not raw enough"??

Eat a bug!...

Conclusion

I'm gonna keep doing my thing and writing my songs.

And best of all keep being the charming sarcastic heifer folks know and love- So naaner!

Love y'all thanks for letting me vent. xoxo

My day as a Songwriter Ups and Downs